SAT

 

Im sitting in my chair now, an old random desk chair that I found on the side of the road and regret having taken over the one I had before. I can’t lean back very much at all, the arms are too stiff for my liking or maybe just too high, as to where I’m just squished and putting too much pressure on my forearms. My hand is numb writing this, actually just the pinky on my left hand.

Flash flood, I really feel like I’m losing my sanity lately and trying to run from it,

Or at least keep myself distracted, I want to do so much

But accomplish so little in the minutes that pass by me.

 

How do I get myself wrong?

I’m fading more and more

Every time I try to process the information in front of me. 

 

I’m cool though. 

Don’t ask me about it.

Why,

 

I don’t know. 

 

Maybe that’s attention seeking to want to be alone…

Love it all.

 

But don’t really love or trust myself yet and I'm working on that part.

I have a seething energy that lies right beneath my skin,

Beyond my eyes, 

Above my fingertips